Sunday, December 26, 2010

Comforting Gestures

I know we aren't willing to admit it to everyone at this very moment, but the other night when you kissed me on the forehead after you tucked me in you realized how much you care about me. What you don't know is that I was awake, and I realized it too.

And right now that's good enough for me.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Take Off Your Mask When You're Talking To Me

I wish someone that I know well, and knows everything I've been through was here to understand me.
Because right now I don't know who to trust.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Full Moons and Desolate Beaches

Such an amazing thing like this is hard to keep secret, I know.

Thank you for understanding and keeping this hush hush for me now, because I'll remember that when the coast is clear.

Sunday, September 26, 2010

I Want A New Bitchin' Pair of Boots

To walk all over you with.

You Are Not Him

I don't feel the same way, and I'm sorry.

I've let you lead yourself on because I am too insensitively numb right now to be sympathetic towards anyone. I'm sick of feeling like an asshole.

When I catch you looking at me the way you do, like you adore every little move I make, it makes me want to vomit. It's time to put my running shoes back on.

I Stole This From a Friend

Saturday, September 18, 2010

Smile and Nod

Yeah, he is beautiful, but he doesn't mean a thing to me.

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Matt Costa....happy sighhh

I think this man is adorable. One day maybe I'll meet him and get to tell him how much I daydream about him.

Monday, September 13, 2010

Remarkably Untouched

I just realized;
I'm 23 years old, and I've never ever been in love.
I've never even dated anyone longer than 6 months.
I'm a person so bent on experiencing new things and diving into everything I do head first, and I haven't even dipped my toes into the one thing that most of society is driven by.
What does that mean?

Monday, September 6, 2010

When It Rains It Pours

It seems like everytime one finds out I'm available again, they all come out of the woodwork. The wolves have descended, but there's only one I wish I could say goodnight to. Time, people, I just need a little time to catch my breath.

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Hate To Say I Told You So

I knew there was a ghost creeping up on me. A year and a half later, and you drive all the way from the keys only to wind up on my doorstep, "514.4 miles" you said, like an innocent little puppy, a year and a half too late. You were crazy enough to want to marry me, but you couldn't keep your hands off other chicks every night I wasn't there to sooth your insecure soul. Well here you go, you get exactly what you deserve, 514.4 miles to get a cold door in your face. What's 514.4 plus 514.4? Who cares? Drive Safely!

Revenge tastes so good.

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Today You Will Read This

On this day, you read something that moved you and made you realise there were no more fears to fear. No tears to cry. No head to hang in shame. That every time you thought you’d offended someone, it was all just in your head and really, they love you with all their heart and nothing will ever change that. That everyone and everything lives on inside you. That that doesn’t make any of it any less real.

That soft touches will change you and stay with you longer than hard ones.

That being alone means you’re free. That old lovers miss you and new lovers want you and the one you’re with is the one you’re meant to be with. That the tingles running down your arms are angel feathers and they whisper in your ear, constantly, if you choose to hear them. That everything you want to happen, will happen, if you decide you want it enough. That every time you think a sad thought, you can think a happy one instead.

That you control that completely.

That the people who make you laugh are more beautiful than beautiful people. That you laugh more than you cry. That crying is good for you. That the people you hate wish you would stop and you do too.

That your friends are reflections of the best parts of you. That you are more than the sum total of the things you know and how you react to them. That dancing is sometimes more important than listening to the music.

That the most embarrassing, awkward moments of your life are only remembered by you and no one else. That no one judges you when you walk into a room and all they really want to know, is if you’re judging them. That what you make and what you do with your time is more important than you’ll ever fathom and should be treated as such. That the difference between a job and art is passion. That neither defines who you are. That talking to strangers is how you make friends.

That bad days end but a smile can go around the world. That life contradicts itself, constantly. That that’s why it’s worth living.

That the difference between pain and love is time. That love is only as real as you want it to be. That if you feel good, you look good but it doesn’t always work the other way around.

That the sun will rise each day and it’s up to you each day if you match it. That nothing matters up until this point. That what you decide now, in this moment, will change the future. Forever. That rain is beautiful.

And so are you.

- I wrote this for you.

Float On

It's ok, I'm much more interesting on my own anyway. I don't ever want to be "the girlfriend", or "the fiance", or "the wife". I want to be Lacey, and I want someone who can be themselves and it just fits, you know? Like in the movies, not in The Smiths' songs.

Another Skeleton In My Closet

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Get Over Yourself

This is just like the last time I wore my heart on my sleeve...Oh wait, there wasn't a last time. I can go back to that person I was if you'd like, but I have a feeling you wouldn't like her so much.

Friday, August 27, 2010

500 Days of Bliss

So I thought no one could make either of these albums better, untill they were combined in an energetic, unapoligetic, wonderfully friendly remix. Introducing Lil Wayne's Album mixed with the otherwise dreamy 500 days of summer soundtrack, 500 Days of Weezy. Thank you My Sick Uncle, thank you. Every track is exactly what I want to hear, when I want to hear it.

P.S.- I'm sure you've guessed by the pictures and videos being posted, but I no longer am limited to mere text on here. I'm back bitches.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Years Overdue

Dear Dad,

I don't even know where to start.


Everything about the ocean sets me free. From when I was a little girl and my brother wouldn't let me play with him until now when someone dear to me passes away- the ocean gives me a reassurance that everything will be alright. I ride my bike around this sunny seaside town, skate down the hill in front of my house, and plunge into the ocean only a few steps away and know that no matter what I'll always have this love for the water if nothing else. That's why I'm giving back. Thats why I'm working my ass off to become a Marine Science Technician in the United States Coast Guard. To clean up the ocean and protect wildlife the most effective way possible.

Because the ocean has always been there, even when no one else was.

"The cure for everything is saltwater; sweat, tears, and the sea."

Why does ignoring you make me so upset?

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

I come from a family where the men have either betrayed me, or died. Why the FUCK would you think I would sit back and take YOUR bullshit?

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Everything has been ghost themed lately. The book I've been reading, the songs I listen to, the boys that contact me. And I'm convinced my house is haunted. Literally, my roommate and I saw a person shaped shadow walking down a hall with no windows. I'm less scared, and more fascinated. I wish I was this enticed by everything in my life that should frighten me.

Monday, August 23, 2010

Destroy What Destroys You

I'm sorry. I thought this would be different. I thought my thoughts and my feelings and my heart was different this time. But they aren't and it's not. Don't see the fact that I may be making a selfish move a flaw; see it as a quick save. We can never destroy eachother, ever.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

A Bright Kind of Blue

My little popgun

Be my Thrill

I cannot fathom why I'm letting this go on; this is the part where I usually run. But you make me so happy, and everything seems so sane this time. How can I resist?

Saturday, July 31, 2010

Conflict of Interest

There's a hole in my pocket that's about your size. Shit.

Riddle me That Batman

What do you do when there's a problem with no solution?

Give Me Something to Believe In

The day someone fights for it, is the day I'll let my guard down and make sacrifices. Until then I'll polish my silver, dust off my record collection, and run the streets with my hair down and an open mind to the ones I've written off in the past.

Monday, July 26, 2010

Always Fighting

"..but Henry preferred somebody who screamed when they burned."
- Hot Water Music, by Charles Bukowski

I Cradle the Crow, Always Shoot Off the Dove

I've always envied birds. Always free, the ugly ones, that is. Rarely do you see a beautiful macaw flying free. I prefer to not have my wings clipped, ever. That's my next tattoo; blackbirds.

Only You

There's no one here that interests me like you do, and I can't help but wonder if it's because I'm taken, or if I just won't give anyone else a chance to.
Am I taken?

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Back in Action

Hey kids! After 2 months of hell in boot camp and 1 month of getting situated at my first duty station at United States Coast Guard Sector Jacksonville, it's been a long haul. The few people that actually read this might not have even noticed I was gone haha, but I'm back, with a better understanding of everything good and bad in the world. But don't worry, contrary to popular belief of peoples' views in the military, I am still the naively rebellious girl I was raised- into punk rock, street fashion and fart jokes. I'm feelin' the poppier new vintage side of music today, plus the drummer's hot.

Song of the Day
Better Trends
by Japanese Motors

Monday, May 3, 2010

I'll be seein you

I won't have a voice for the next 8 weeks...untill then!

Never slow down, and no matter what, always FIGHT.

Every goodbye makes the next hello closer.

Saturday, May 1, 2010

Slaughterhouse Five

"The most important thing I learned on Tralfamadore was that when a person dies he only appears to die. He is still very much alive in the past, so it is very silly for people to cry at his funeral. All moments, past, present, and future, always have existed, always will exist. The Tralfamadorians can look at all different moments just the way we can look at a stretch of the rocky mountains, for instance. They can see how permanent all the moments are, and they can look at any moment that interests them. It is just an illusion we have here on earth that one moment follows another one, like beads on a string, and that once a moment is gone it is gone forever. When the Tralfamadorian sees a corpse, all he thinks is that the dead person is in bad condition in that particular moment, but that same person is just fine in plenty of other moments. Now, when I myself hear that somebody is dead, I simply shrug and say what the Tralfamadorians say about dead people, which is "So it goes."

"That is a very Earthling question to ask...Why you? Why us for that matter? Why anything? Because this moment simply is. Have you ever seen bugs trapped in amber?.....Well, here we are...trapped in the amber of this moment. There is no why."

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Artist of the Week

I stumbled upon this artist and love all of his/her stuff...only problem is, he/she is yet to be identified...if anyone knows who does these enticingly kick-ass paintings let me know.

Never Let Go

"Know someone as much as you can. Hold onto the moments that define them. Then when their body leaves, they won’t."
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