Sunday, August 29, 2010

Today You Will Read This

On this day, you read something that moved you and made you realise there were no more fears to fear. No tears to cry. No head to hang in shame. That every time you thought you’d offended someone, it was all just in your head and really, they love you with all their heart and nothing will ever change that. That everyone and everything lives on inside you. That that doesn’t make any of it any less real.

That soft touches will change you and stay with you longer than hard ones.

That being alone means you’re free. That old lovers miss you and new lovers want you and the one you’re with is the one you’re meant to be with. That the tingles running down your arms are angel feathers and they whisper in your ear, constantly, if you choose to hear them. That everything you want to happen, will happen, if you decide you want it enough. That every time you think a sad thought, you can think a happy one instead.

That you control that completely.

That the people who make you laugh are more beautiful than beautiful people. That you laugh more than you cry. That crying is good for you. That the people you hate wish you would stop and you do too.

That your friends are reflections of the best parts of you. That you are more than the sum total of the things you know and how you react to them. That dancing is sometimes more important than listening to the music.

That the most embarrassing, awkward moments of your life are only remembered by you and no one else. That no one judges you when you walk into a room and all they really want to know, is if you’re judging them. That what you make and what you do with your time is more important than you’ll ever fathom and should be treated as such. That the difference between a job and art is passion. That neither defines who you are. That talking to strangers is how you make friends.

That bad days end but a smile can go around the world. That life contradicts itself, constantly. That that’s why it’s worth living.

That the difference between pain and love is time. That love is only as real as you want it to be. That if you feel good, you look good but it doesn’t always work the other way around.

That the sun will rise each day and it’s up to you each day if you match it. That nothing matters up until this point. That what you decide now, in this moment, will change the future. Forever. That rain is beautiful.

And so are you.

- I wrote this for you.

Float On

It's ok, I'm much more interesting on my own anyway. I don't ever want to be "the girlfriend", or "the fiance", or "the wife". I want to be Lacey, and I want someone who can be themselves and it just fits, you know? Like in the movies, not in The Smiths' songs.

Another Skeleton In My Closet

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Get Over Yourself

This is just like the last time I wore my heart on my sleeve...Oh wait, there wasn't a last time. I can go back to that person I was if you'd like, but I have a feeling you wouldn't like her so much.

Friday, August 27, 2010

500 Days of Bliss

So I thought no one could make either of these albums better, untill they were combined in an energetic, unapoligetic, wonderfully friendly remix. Introducing Lil Wayne's Album mixed with the otherwise dreamy 500 days of summer soundtrack, 500 Days of Weezy. Thank you My Sick Uncle, thank you. Every track is exactly what I want to hear, when I want to hear it.

P.S.- I'm sure you've guessed by the pictures and videos being posted, but I no longer am limited to mere text on here. I'm back bitches.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Years Overdue

Dear Dad,

I don't even know where to start.


Everything about the ocean sets me free. From when I was a little girl and my brother wouldn't let me play with him until now when someone dear to me passes away- the ocean gives me a reassurance that everything will be alright. I ride my bike around this sunny seaside town, skate down the hill in front of my house, and plunge into the ocean only a few steps away and know that no matter what I'll always have this love for the water if nothing else. That's why I'm giving back. Thats why I'm working my ass off to become a Marine Science Technician in the United States Coast Guard. To clean up the ocean and protect wildlife the most effective way possible.

Because the ocean has always been there, even when no one else was.

"The cure for everything is saltwater; sweat, tears, and the sea."

Why does ignoring you make me so upset?

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

I come from a family where the men have either betrayed me, or died. Why the FUCK would you think I would sit back and take YOUR bullshit?

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Everything has been ghost themed lately. The book I've been reading, the songs I listen to, the boys that contact me. And I'm convinced my house is haunted. Literally, my roommate and I saw a person shaped shadow walking down a hall with no windows. I'm less scared, and more fascinated. I wish I was this enticed by everything in my life that should frighten me.

Monday, August 23, 2010

Destroy What Destroys You

I'm sorry. I thought this would be different. I thought my thoughts and my feelings and my heart was different this time. But they aren't and it's not. Don't see the fact that I may be making a selfish move a flaw; see it as a quick save. We can never destroy eachother, ever.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

A Bright Kind of Blue

My little popgun

Be my Thrill

I cannot fathom why I'm letting this go on; this is the part where I usually run. But you make me so happy, and everything seems so sane this time. How can I resist?