Monday, November 30, 2009

Don't Hate Me Plzkthnx

You probably think I'm being a bitch, when in reality I'm sparing you from all the trouble I seem to cause. I care about you, which is why I prefer to save you from becoming part of the trail of wreckage I leave behind everywhere I go. You are different to me and I don't want to hurt you, so don't make this difficult.

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Look at my eyes...

It's been like this for days.
My dream has finally come true!
I'm turning into a zombieeeeeeeee :D

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Cheer Up Buttercup

There's so much sadness behind your eyes. For some reason, something inside of me feels responsible for making it all go away.
I just want to cheer you up.

Friday, November 27, 2009


I want this again.

Song of the Day:

Cigarettes in the Theatre by Two Door Cinema Club
Woo it's a chilly night, and me and the boys (plus Peacock) are gonna wear mittens and play with fire. Pray for our flammable hands!

I refuse to wreck your home

OK, I get it, you're taken. But will you please stop flirting with me? Damnit.


I wanna go somewhere random, with people I don't know.

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Giggidy Giggidy

I've been in a silly mood all day today.

My favorite place at night right now isn't the bar or the movies or fishing the pier, it's just goofin off at the beach with my besties, in the dark.

the boredom of turkey day

I named my toes.
(from left to right)
Tiny, Timmy, Tina, Curvy, Smelly, Biggie, Snaggle, Scratchy, Arnold, and Edward Cullen.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

pardonez moi?

When the president pardons the turkey it always melts my heart.
It makes me want to pardon one.....
....but that would mean I don't get to EAT IT. MWAHAHAHAH

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Song of the Day:

Mickey Mouse is Dead by The Subhumans


Monday, November 23, 2009

mission accomplished

I cleaned my room finally! If you know me, you know it usually looks ten times worse than this:

I think I deserve a cookie.


Song of the day:
If you fall by Azure Ray

85 degrees is not Thanksgiving weather

I want it to get cold so I can wear the super cute gloves that turn into mittens I just bought.

And I'm making pumpkin cookies, and decorating them as weird as possible to represent my crazy family that will be devouring them on thursday. My father is coming to Thanksgiving dinner at my mother's house, which should be interesting, since they haven't even been in the same zip code in five years. It's actually quite humorous to me, to watch 2 people that have been married for 20 years at one point be awkward. Ohhhh gotta love the X's, whether they're boyfriends or husbands.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

green or blue

Please close your eyes, they're piercing.
Through my mind, through my ego, through my cold heart that had plans to use you.
They shine so bright blue-green, I hardly noticed your lips on mine.
I want to go back and not turn my cheek.
Abandon defense mechanisms, disreguard the consequences, and be completely vulnerable to someone new.
Someone like you.
Right now I should be thinking "I win."
But I'm losing if I don't get to kiss you again.

Saturday, November 21, 2009

like mother unlike daughter

I'm listening to my mother rattle off on the phone to one of her girly friends about every detail of the brunch she had, down to the color of the napkins and the nailpolish the hostess was wearing, and I wonder how I could've come from her, because all I'm passive-agressively thinking in my head is "WHO.FUCKING.CARES?"

She's so fussy and has to talk about eveything she's doing before she does it, while she's doing it, and after she does it. She never shuts up. I love her to death but I just don't see it.

I'm a kid again

I get to hang out with my two favorite people in the whole world for the next week. I grew up with Sammy and have known her since I was 3. I can tell her anything and she just gets me. She brings me back to childhood and still lives next to my old house that I lived in for 18 years, before everything hit the fan and my family turned into a freak show. And Owen, her older sister's son is the cutest, most fun intellectual little kid I have ever encountered. He's this little creature that brings out my inner wild thing and gets me on my hands and knees digging in the sand pretending I'm a sea monster, and I absolutely love it. I finally get to reunite with my sister and my nephew for Thanksgiving break.

Friday, November 20, 2009


I wish this jellyfish sting would go away already.
I can't itch my arm through my work uniform!

Thursday, November 19, 2009

New Moon





Can't I just have both?
My whole life, I've been faced with the same dilemma. Do you go with what you know is good for you, or with what feels good? I guess when you find your soul mate, it will be one in the same.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

time to go out...


I have always hated my eyebrows, because my hair is so blonde they are practically INVISIBLE! Butttttt, this just in: BLEACHED BROWS IS THE NEW ARCH.



old rituals become new necessities

I was having a crappy day due to no good very bad news, so my friend mike convinced me to come surfing for the first time in a year or so and now my whole relaxed, lethargic, carefree body could care less. It brought proof of my favorite quote:
" The cure for anything is salt water; sweat, tears, and the sea."

Attention to the Obnoxious

I wear a giant bow in my hair at work because it's the only way you notice me, even if it is to poke fun.

Monday, November 16, 2009

I Wrote This For You

I absolutely love this.

"Out of ammo and out of lives and out of credits.

Though my damage is low, if you fall, I will stand over your body and begin to fight where you ended.

In the blood. In the mud.

Until they bring me down."

for steffy

These are some of my musical escapades that I've not noticed you listening to or sang along to with you, which is hard since our lives have kind of intertwined since we were 11.
I've weeded out the hardcore punk of course. :)
I think you might like them.
You could already like them, or I could just be wrong.

The XX
Get Back Guinozzi
The Rural Alberta Advantage (I think u'll like them the best)
El Perro Del Mar
The Submarines
Pinback (have loved these guys since I was 15)
Los Campesinos!
The Blow
Cuban Cigar Crisis
Joshua Radin
Wolf Parade
Peter Bjorn & John
TV on the Radio
The Very Best
Sufjan Stevens

Sunday, November 15, 2009

You'll never read this anyways....

Years have passed.
After it all, I wish we could at least be friends.

Good Riddance

46 days untill I ship out to Cape May, New Jersey for Coast Guard Basic Training.
I don't want to make anymore friends.
I don't want to miss anymore people.
I don't want to plant anymore roots.
I just want to leave right now, before more people leave me.

Not your traditional PB&J

Song of the day:
Nothing to Worry About
by Peter Bjorn & John
be careful. it has my nomination for hitting the repeat button.

cuddle party

"goodnight big spoon."

"goodnight little spoon."

Friday, November 13, 2009

no one sleeps when i'm awake

When I listen to The Sounds, I can't stop moving!

Thursday, November 12, 2009


I feel like a bitch, but all you are is a pawn to me. I toy with you because I have time to pass before I leave, and you are literally putty in my hands.

I didn't stay up with you on the beach till 5 am because I like you, I simply wanted to get laid.
You are merely a living, breathing vibrator.
I almost feel guilty for not feeling guilty, if that makes any sense, but then I think of all the scumbag guys out there using a girl somewhere, and a gloriously sinister smile spreads across my face.